Well, we are going to therapy tomorrow. At very least we must learn to communicate. I need to be able to say no and not have her cry or try to manipulate it to a yes any way she can.

I must learn that I’m allowed to say no and not feel punished for it…. Guess we will see what happens.

She asked tonight if we are driving there together?

She has told me she isn’t sure if she will ever be able to look at me the same after I told her I want a divorce if this doesn’t change.

We are “supposed” to go on vacation with her family Friday to Friday. Camping trip. Trying to decide if that will be terrible or not? If we are trying to work it out do I still go? Will space be good for us? Will her parents get drunk and start with their mouth? Ahhh fucking sucks.