So I know I posted earlier and divorce is almost certain for me.. the question is why does my wife hold so much value to me still? I don’t understand it.. she treated me incredibly badly.. she is basically a contentious person.. unwilling to compromise or even really consider that i may have my own opinion.. I was looking at this beautiful woman today.. we made eye contact.. and both looked for a little while.. my initial thought was.. damn.. I wonder if I’d have a shot.. but then this feeling and thoughts washed over me.. that for some reason, despite all the bad treatment she is worth 10x as much as any other female in my mind.. it certainly has something to do with our sons.. but she says she doesn’t love me as a husband, and she has been out of the home over 6 months.. what the fuck else do I need to just get on with my life.. in my mind we have both seen each other’s worst.. and if we were both willing we could build something great together.. she is still very beautiful to me, but the truth is physically most of you guys would not agree with me on that..