I was texting a girl for the last 5 days. I asked her at the beginning if she has a husband or a boyfriend. She answered that she does not have one.

I asked her out, she told that she has other plans and that she would like to get to know me better first. Usually I text only for logistics, but this time I decided to try out a different approach.

I texted quite a lot with her. We discussed different topics. And she clearly saw that I am into her and that I have crazy expectations about her. We discussed how lonely I feel, that I had sex a long time ago. Also, she was giving a lot of signs that we may meet and that she is really just cautious about meeting a stranger, otherwise she would went out with me.

So, I was really pleased that I met a girl online and that the "texting is for logistics only" rule turned out to be false. I was really excited and happy these 5 last days.

But today we were discussing with her why a man should pay for a woman and other really intimate topics. It was extremely amazing, she was reasonable and clever in all these questions.

But just a moment ago she sent a laughing emoji and told me that she was just playing me and that I am a complete loser. I had a sex a year ago and told about that to her. So, she wrote to me that during these five days she was fucked 4 times without a condom and that she sucked a guy till he cum all over her face. And twice she was doing doggy while texting me and giving me hopes. She told that I will never meet a girlfriend.

I don't know if you can understand how devastated I feel. But it feels as if I am experiencing the biggest pain I ever felt in my life. I am fucking crying all over my face so much that I can eat salt out of my tears.

Long story short. If I survive this failure never in my life again will I text for something else except logistics.

Also, for you to better understand how fucked up it feels. The girl works as a software engineer, which is my biggest fetish. I am into smart tech women. Probably the only other thing which was supposed to help me get over this is that there are other girls I am texting with. But fuck them, probably a few of them are also being fucked while texting me.

Texting is for logistics only.