I just realised today after chatting with an old friend after long time (he’s a pretty positive guy), I’ve been low key miserable for some months without even realising it. The bad and funny part , I’ve been going to the gym , trying to be be productive in my studies without enjoying. I’ve been as they say trying to up my smv wishing if I do all this , one day I’ll wake up and chicks will be falling on me like rain in July.

I’ve been miserable because I’ve been trying too hard , taking life too seriously. Got into stoicism , trying to find the meaning and whatnot. I guess I’ve been trying so hard with the Philosophy (without actually learning )thing because I’m craving to get something in life too early.

Relaxing felt like lagging behind an army of alpha males who are working all day all night.

I’ve been trying to find problems in my life out of nowhere to feel like an underdog.

Had become too goal oriented.

Today it feels like a huge weight lifted off of my shoulders. So I’ve orders some food and I’m gonna take care of myself.

You should too. Much love to everyone.