Hello there!

Probably my only post to this sub. So I'll make it short. Disclaimer: I was never a RP-er, just a person who almost swallowed the poison. And I say this as a 23 yr old single since birth male.

So I got into depression last October 2018 due to anxiety with the future in general. Long story short I got hallucinations of dying alone and getting life on track so began to look into this TRP thing.

Flashback: I heard it first on May 2018 when I stumble on it due to a research thing I did (that's also how I knew of incels: Toronto attack). Never gave a thought afterwards.

Going back to October, I began to seek answers by looking at self-help stuff on Reddit. I found TRP again and at first I was appealed to the stuff. Then I began to smell the outward misogyny that it spewed about. Then I began to feel unexplained anger that persisted until the 3rd week of November 2018. Well.....whaddya know?? A depressed and desperate brain would not act very well. So I gave it a chance and "was officially on the fence".

Some good advice are sometime filled with "women this" or "women that". Sure there are disgusting thots out there but painting all womenfolk by the same brush is rather disturbing. Kinda like glassing an entire planet because someone destroyed your TIE fighter.

I was also put off by the "field reports" as it reminded me of those wacko PUAs. I mean why would you post your private encounters. I mean SEAL Team Six ain't publicizing their top-secret special ops unless it's some very famous HVT. Also I began to smell the hypocrisy. The double standard is strong. Also they are using casual sex tactics to hopefully get a girlfriend. Then I heard of stories of women leaving their red-pilled boyfriends. At that point I was very close to swallowing 75% of the pill. I even went on several "reconnaissance runs" on incel spaces like Braincels for some unknown reason while I'm at it. Escaped the blackpill trap as well.

Then I found these sub and relaxed my mind and decided to not join swallow the poison. The misogyny and hypocrisy is simply too strong.

Afterwards I began to look into dating strategies that are not filled with that crap. I also entered mental health support forums that will keep me on track with my mental state. Though I never dated at all, I did all of that so when my time comes I will be more prepared for what will I do. IMO better face the ordeal that is not be temped by stuff like TRP now than later.

Because being 23 (at time of writing), it really dawned on me that my work was complete mostly (college degree, project-based job, gaming hobby) and cannot live like a "neckbeard gamer" forever.

The silver lining of all of these is that I not have a new perspective with life and social interaction in general. Trust me, I gave zero fucks about love and sex and relationships during my college years. In fact I blew half my internship budget on a Steelseries gaming mice and an Xbox controller, not to mention my over-focus to my studies, cause Asian.

What TRP did to me even though I never swallowed it in the first place is that human relationships are meant to be cherished and to be cared and you must care more about your confidence and attitude (pretty much the only good stuff their materials have taught me). My ordeal taught me as well that there is more to life than your 5 hours of PUBG or Rainbow Six Siege. If not for discovering it then I might have to push through of my dangerous plan to start dating at 30 because priorities!!

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