[TL;DR] (venting) (might contain a bit of resentment)

Sometimes I come across posts on reddit (for random reasons) that hold traces of red pill language. I was recently looking up stuff on how to forgive my ex and ended up coming across a red pill community (I didn't realize untill I was there) and it made me feel like complete shit, even though I know none of those arguments hold true. It just hurts to have your whole existence diminished as if it was nothing and to be considered a bad person because of some cultural convention, to know my point of view will be completely disregarded just because of a lack of historical comprehension. I care a lot about history and about knowing what women and other opressed comunities went through, I can't shake this feeling that it's not fair to compare feminism (even modern feminism) to red pill theory when I know most people haven't even read about beauvoir, bordieu or women's history overall and I have spent most of my teen years trying to be a "good feminist" (that is, a well informed one, one that doesn't speak out of place afraid men are gonna mistake me for a crazy, angry woman). I already have to deal with so many forms of violence against women that can only exist in my memory, and on top of that I know these experiences with misoginistic abuse will be discarded as a women's manipulation thing when I try to use them as argumants to why women don't hold any actual power and spent most of their existence in humanity trying to fight for basic human rights, let alone being considered as capable as man are in an intelectual sphere. I guess I'm just venting about how much it hurts. My family itself is very misoginistic (my dad is practically a pedophile and my uncles would actually hit on me and my sisters and make constant veiled sexual advances that have led me to a lot of male-power related trauma), and on top of it I feel like my boyfriend's dad hates me cause he's both borderline WP and a red piller. Femminism was the political tool I had to deal with 3000+ years of oppression, only to have men tell me I'm fake and horrible and everything sexism had already lead me to believe my whole life.

Not sure if this is a good place to post this. I din't feel comfortable posting it in feminist threads cause I'm not really in contact with internet femminism. If there's a better place to post this, like vintims of the red pill or something, I dnn, I'm open to suggestions.

Thanks for the attention, please don't be agressive.