I am 17, half-Hispanic, and have autism, I want to be more involved in my faith but I have had some struggles that caused me to sometimes feel weak and taken advantage of.

I read some incel sites and believed some things that were very untrue and got me in trouble at one point in my life, but I felt a spiritual experience saved me each time I had a bad experience or I felt like I was going to end up being influenced by outside forces.

I know if I get involved in this site, people will tell me I am crazy for wanting to study Spanish in Mexico, serve a mission in Mexico, and become a Cybersecurity but I feel this is what will only solve my issues.

I know people will accuse me for leaving a cult for another cult but I don’t believe it’s a cult because my family from Mexico is so involved in the church and everyone in my family who has served a mission in the Church is Polynesian or from Mexico.

My 20 year old cousin from Mexico, Daliana, knows how to balance between believing the Church and feminism but she does not label herself a feminist and has faith and so does my Grandma from Mexico.

I want to talk to the missionaries from my family who served their mission in Polynesia so I can become closer and exit this toxic group and serve a mission in Mexico.

I know some people here might not support me but I may as well do it because it’s the only way for me to exit Inceldom and help find healthier beliefs.

I’m getting my passports to go to Mexico on Thursday so I can study abroad and go to school, wish me luck in the process.