Traumatic intrusive thoughts/ memories and dissociation from sexual harassment have taken over my life. I need support...

I was harassed at a support group several months ago and I can't stop thinking about what happened. I was stuck in a room with men who sexualized me by getting boners, stared, leered at my legs and butt, then one stared at my legs, ran out of the room then creepily waiting for me while I was alone to walk me to my car and ask where I lived. In college, men would touch my body at parties because they couldn't "help it." The last two times I was in the ER, the health care providers unnecessarily flicked my breasts while they put a strap on my arms for an EKG. The doctor sexually looked my body and legs. A male nurse leered at my body as I walked to and from the bathroom. While I was in school internships, I was sexually harassed by two leaders. One stalked me, leered at me, controlled me, intimidated me, wouldn't take no for an answer, and was angry whenever I spoke to men. The other one followed me around, became aroused around me, and told me "I remind me of his wife and if he had another son, he would have him marry me." This creepiness from men has been happening all my life starting with my dad and I am tired of it. I don't even do my hair anymore, lost weight, wear baggy clothes and avoid men so I can avoid potential sexualization and creeps.

Sometimes I think I purposely will think about the memories because my body is addicted to the fight or flight response and the chaos is normal. I also know my mind is trying to process and work out the trauma which is why I keep replaying what happened. I spend most of my days dissociating and replaying traumatic memories. It has taken over my life. I feel so stuck and I am struggling to get out.

Who else is struggling with managing the intrusive thoughts and memories from trauma? I really need validation and support right now.