I’m more politically nihilistic still a feminist, it is one of the foundational hierarchies by critics the abdication of thought, feeling like it’s not your place in feminist to give your male perspective and being treated as collateral damage

It’s not that I can critique it’s that I don’t expect genuine apologies, just nonsense like “the whole males wanting autistic women on tinder is bad because somewhere in some far away land some guys use it to manipulate women” I’m not a welfare of empathy and on some issues I’m just not gonna care, I sometimes wonder by appealing to “the bad man” they are judging their standards in delation to an easy target they don’t want to actually decentre men and judge their morality on its own terms

Sorry yall I want write something but I feel very negative and descending into that nihilistic and existential state

Some self deprecation is done as a way of reducing ego but for some folks who are shy or not that confident/neurodivergent or disabled it can depress me being treated as a generality

And any pain you experience is justified because of “some man” the man doesn’t even have to exist sometimes they hypothesise it as an assumption and dogma

Sometimes I wonder if they need that outcast guy to exists to have moral high ground

It makes them feel good,

Both male feminists and feminism at large

Sometimes a I get nihilistic about doing things for the greater good and also having mistrust of ideologies (all even anarchism or whatever stands in for it)

To be told having an opinion on feminism in a debate which uses swerf and arguably alternative talking points is “classic man shit” and then when I listen to folks talk about sex workers and I say it to him he usaesa the “bad feminism” line that they are 2nd wave feminists who don’t centre “the subject” whether there will be consistent with appeals to subjectivity an the subject t and speak over men, trans men etc and treat their narrative about them as OBJECTIVE is another thing, I don’t want to be too harsh people make mistakes but I don’t like people telling you to doubt your own perspective and then Moving the goalposts if anything bad happens

For folks who claim to know the male experience I expect some of these guys to know the discourse that mentally ill or lonely men are either dangerous or burdens or that men who commit suicide don’t care about others

I’m meant to lie to myself and believe in the individual model of disability instead of the social one

I just wish tension would be admitted rather than telling you to be yourself “but not like that”

When calling a bunch of women “old” is enforcing systemic oppression (funnily enough it was more of a dirty joke which they laughed and it created engagement and discord)

But all the nonsense pop feminism isn’t

It makes me egoistic because theories can be means of subordination rather than tools

I agree with it and it’s not a single issue thing it connects with many of my lived experiences even backwards seeing myself in “the other”

But sometimes I get depressed that autism and adhd women are epistemological standpoints but your lived experiences are random events are you should have just went offline (even though my compulsions stopped me from hiding the content)

How many goalpost will they do so just have a cent of empathy Therapy isn’t easy and I have the a million questions which is effectively victim blaming

They will talk about intent and impact but when the impact faces men they will say it wasn’t about “intent” by class or criminality

Inconsistent arguing and it actually generally true but it’s utilisation can be sloppy like every leftist ideology

“Teachers are villains cause they make rules? Really, even as a youth liberationist it’s not a telos that oppressor groups are “reactionary” and lived isn’t as simple as power dichotomies

The left can treat itself as the negation of the right

If the right hates postmodernism the left has to defend it

If the right hates Marxist Leninist states Some leftists have to defend it

Of the left associates capitalism with individualism then the left has to fetishize “community” and sociality to the point where individuality is seen as an illness

The same happens with Guys

I wonder how many leftists Supress their true emotions for the greater good that may not be that great and may come with its own “side effects”

I earlier today got very interesting reccomendations on anarchafeminism but it’s partly because I respect it in some sense and doubt my perspective that I feel depressed to realise some of them don’t really give a degree of care about men’s issues outside of rehearsed lines

If you feel good it’s masculine ego and if you feel bad or guilt then it’s a defense mechanism to centre your own feelings

Sometimes I wonder with critical theories since it’s so easy to critique that they can always find something wrong If you look for it you can find it, if assumes you have to follow critical models in the first place, criticising mentally ill people makes no sense but if you as men they magically think it’s progressive

Sometimes they want to square competing mentalities on what feminism being for men means but also saying that it’s not their job or burdening the oppressed and it’s mostly men’s responsibility and then others say it’s infantilising and male hero syndrome

It’s self sacrifice for Christs sake

Critical theories of power are just theories made by humans they are infallible and should be treated a tools which are live not dead abstractions

I wonder if alot of unlearning patriarchy is just justifying pain as “apart of the process” but then sometimes I wonder if pain is necessary to grow and gain real perspective and empathy

There are no easy answers and most neatly packed theories and methodologies come with their strings attached and the people that think of their theories as all knowing are the people I start to mistrust

In Stirnerite fashion I don’t oppose feminism but “sacred feminism”

Do you hold ideas or do ideas hold you?