I hope the moderators won't mind if I create a separate post to thank people who supported me in my previous post. Thank you VERY MUCH to everyone who commented on my previous post, supported me, shared their experience, gave advice, and offered another perspective on the problem I described. I feel relieved, and the depressive feeling is gone, though yesterday I felt like I didn't want to live.

I couldn't find time to reply to everyone, but I have carefully read all your answers, and I'm going to screenshot and save some of them.

I'm really happy to find a place where such conversations are possible. Also, I am grateful to the creators of this subreddit. A left-wing community critical of feminism but not in principle against it — looks like a combination that is quite close to my views.

The policy of dealing with feminism as stated in this community's Mission Statement seems close to how I feel about it. I am not fundamentally against feminism. I support those ideas in feminism that seem to be truly just, egalitarian, and constructive, help women with their issues, and oppose their discrimination. For me, the problem with feminism starts when it starts suggesting I should hate myself.