To tell you the truth, this isn't the worst thing that has happened to me, I have suffered from a MRSA infection as a kid that required surgery and wouldn't want to re-live that experience more than anything else, I am trying to make myself feel better in the situation I am in, I didn't get kicked out of school or get arrested. I've lost some potential friends, and had people talk behind my back and give me dirty looks/ostracize me.

I am still scarred by what happened. Because it puts me in a situation where I am literally defenseless and believe I can do nothing about it.

Some may think this is extreme, but I have been avoiding all contact around women I don't know. And I will especially remove myself or go another route if I ever find myself in a room/elevator alone with a woman. I am taking no risks.

I haven't talked to any therapist about what has happened, and don't know if it's a good idea doing so, I would like to talk to one that knows this is a reality of life, and that is understanding.

Some things I found that helped a lot, was making sure I still eat and get some rest, and definitely fitness has helped me alot, as well as hanging out with my old friends when I have time.

I am not feeling to good about myself, because society makes me feel disposable or that I don't matter, and that my problems are insignificant despite the fact this could of went a whole other way, I could of lost my right to go to school, been falsely imprisoned and much more.

I was shocked that this was even happening to me, because of how passive I already am, and I don't bother anybody, and I care what other people think of me. I was unlucky to come across a bully, who used a cowardly cheap tactic to bully me. This was a first in 18 years. it happened to me at 18 years old, i just finished highschool and already i dealt with this. How many more will I have to deal with is what I wonder.