Hello everyone,

Throwaway account because I'm filled with anxiety and apprehension over what happened today. The people relevant to this story is a man we'll call Jon, who is my oldest friend since we were 10, and we are 24 now. There is also a girl lets call Dom. So on Dom's birthday, Dom and I hooked up. A large group of us went out to the bar on Dom's birthday and we were all very intoxicated, and after we all went back to Dom's place. After everyone went to bed I sat beside Dom on the couch, and I asked her to makeout, and we do just that. Things start escalating and then she tells me to go to the bathroom and grab a condom, and I tell her I don't like condoms so lets just do oral and hand stuff. I end up getting a bloody nose and bleeding all over her so we go to the bathroom to clean up, where she tries to give me head but I get whiskey dicked. She then says lets just go our separate ways and we do just that.

Jon calls me today and says that "because of my actions" that night I have severally impacted Dom, and I'm no longer welcome to come to their house or to try and contact Dom. I ask him what her side of the story was and he says he doesn't feel comfortable reiterating her side. I then ask if I can tell him my side and he says that we would have to do that a later date in person. I then ask him point blank if he thinks I sexually assaulted her and he said that we would have to talk about it at a later date. The conversation basically ended there and my head has been spinning ever since. Best case scenario abunch of people think I sexually assaulted Dom when I did not, and worst case if she presses charges I might never be a cop (my dream career). I'm worried I'll be hanged in the court of public opinion and I don't know what to do.

I've never felt so alone, angry or betrayed in my entire life. I'm completely torn and I don't know what to do. I feel like the best thing I can is not contact Dom and prepare myself mentally that several people will think that I'm a sexual abuser. I think I could handle that...I just don't know if I could handle my career being ruined over it. I feel betrayed that my former friend wouldn't even give me the benefit of the doubt, nor even ask my side. I work several hours away from my home town where all this transpired, and I feel stranded, helpless and scared. I thank everyone who took the time to read this and hear me vent, and any words of advice would be appreciated.