I already know whats going to happen here, I'll be ridiculed, called a plethora of names, and have many baseless assumptions made about me...oh well. I'm 23m, I grew up in a "normal" home with a mom and dad, also have a brother and a sister. Growing up I witnessed my mom ridicule, and belittle my father constantly, my dad was a hardworking, kind man who didnt deserve the shit she spewed at him. I remember more than once my mom talking about their sex life and belittling my dad right in front of me, telling him he "has a tiny penis" laughing at him, calling him pathetic..this happened from the time I was around 8. I even had a memory resurface not too long ago of when I was 8 or 9 of my mom making me drop my pants so she make fun of my "pathetic tiny penis" like WHAT THE FUCK? I've witnessed my mother act like an absolute psychotic C*NT when she got mad..I remember hearing her scream and throwing shit and just acting like she just got out of the psych ward, and coming downstairs to a wrecked house with broken furniture and glass all over the place and seeing my father holding his composure very well. My sister was always psychotic too I cant even count the times I had to barricade myself in my room because that bitch had pulled a knife and was acting like a fucking wild animal. And not too mention EVERY gf I've had has been a domineering, narcissistic, entitled bitch who constantly talked down on me, physically assaulted me, told me how stupid and inferior they think I am...and guess what? THEY ALWAYS WERE DEFENDED, "oh shes a keeper" "youre so lucky"blah fucking blah yet if I even got mad im always told how wrong I am and how I should be happy I have this wonderful lady. They put on a mask in front of people but behind closed doors are the most vile people. Last year I ran across an ex and this b1tch was trying to rip the money from my hands as I paid for my gas and pursued me out of the gas station punching me in the back the whole way, tryna rip my cig out of my mouth calling me a "stupid bitch" and "pussy" and when I told her to fuck off it was the "whatre you gonna do bitch" this woman is 5'5 her lungs are popcorn(years of vaping and cigs) she weighs 110 lbs and shes running around thinking she can take me a 6ft 180lb muscular guy who works out and takes care of himself besides the occasional cigarette. If she was a dude I couldve whacked that jaw off the face but since shes a perfect little woman I cant defend myself. Oh yea and all the bystanders thought it was just fucking hilarious I was getting assaulted. Imagine if it was the other way around, id be in prison rn. I think bout this shit daily and the anger and dark thoughts are weighing on me. Im so sick of women ALWAYS being seen as the victim. I think back to that day and I wish I wouldve Chris Browned her, it wouldve been no challenge. Sick of the "strong" women thinking theyre men if i was anything like her multiple violent felon bbdaddy she woulda been in the back of an ambulance. How do I move on and let this shit go?