Hello everyone,

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So i've been watching for a while because youtube has brainwashed me with the algorithm some of this content. I don't watch on a regular basis but i do watch a decent amount : Fresh&Fit, Coachgreg, BetterBachelor,Kevin samuels,DariusM,FitXFearless, The roommates. At first it was funny like idk they said funny shit but then it started to feel real especially in my situation - like i earn very little money i don't have a fashion style, body hygiene is ok-ish so basically all that they tell you to improve i don't and i'm 30 years old so these guys would call me a low value male lowest of the low. Unfortunately i also live in a poor country from Eastern Europe - Romania. And women there are acting more and more like in America like they're high value even the average ones...

So have i fallen for this because i'm sensible to this subject or am I actually a loser?. This is also my first job so it's my first job in 30 years. It's looking very awful guys idk what to do. The job pays as little as 600$ a month that's it

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Because of family issues i couldn't do anything in HS days and after HS i stayed at home playing video games. I spent from 2010 when i finished higschool until 2018 at home. But i was a ghost in HS too. So basically from 2007 until 2018. In 2018 december i got my first job but i am a ghost at my job too so my coworkers are not my friends. And these redpill theories really do get me most of the time.

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I don't think i can improve more than this, should i just take the ,,train'' to the next ,,station'' or what?

Should i learn to live alone without ever knowning the presence of woman because of those 600$/month?