Hello everybody, I'm using a throwaway account because I don't want any of my friends (or my ex) to find this on my regular account, sorry mods.

How do I stop being so angry at my ex? I'm 20 and he was the first boyfriend I'd ever had. We dated for three months, we had sex, and two days later he dumped. It's been a month and a half, and for the first month I told myself it was fine, I wasn't mad, and I even tried to be friends with him. That's such a lie, I'm angry and hurt and I feel used.

I told him repeatedly that I didn't want to have sex, and he kept bringing it up every time we'd get physical, and one day I said yes. I consented, it was my choice, but I wouldn't have fucking done it if I'd known he was going to dump me two days later.

I just want to stop being so angry. It was my first time and now I'm so bitter about it. I feel stupid. Please help.