A Look Into Bipolar Disorder

On my commute, the radio station I was listening to is pushing a female artist called “Banks”. She’s released a new single, and they played one of those little marketing snippets before it, where the artist talks about their song and the process of writing it. I was only half way paying attention in the beginning, but she had my full attention about halfway through it. The woman clearly had a high opinion of herself. She was simply the most special snowflake ever created.

I don’t remember her intro to the song word for word, but I can paraphrase pretty well.

“I wrote Beggin for Thread because I was thinking about all the ways I’m imperfect, and realized exactly how much they make me who I am, and how they really empower me. They make me even more of the goddess that I am.”

Now, she said these things with not a hint of irony or shame in her voice. Ever hear Corey Feldman talk about how incredible and important he is? That’s how she sounded.

So, now I’m primed to listen to the song. It comes on, and it sounds pretty good… Right up until the woman begins to sing.

It… was… amazing. It was amazing how deluded and full BPD the song is. And the venom in her voice during some of the lyrics is telling. I could put the lyrics in this post, but they wouldn’t express what she’s really saying, the tonality she chooses to use speaks volumes about what she’s feeling.

Link to the song: http://jaredbraden.com/news/6036

She exposes in herself through the song, and they way she’s talked about it, many of the symptoms of BPD.

  • Mania may also include . . . delusions of grandeur. Delusions associated with mania frequently center around an expansive sense of self that goes well beyond narcissism, eg, believing oneself to have special (eg, supernatural) powers or to be the chosen leader of the world or universe.
  • Mood swings
  • Irritability
  • Refusal to admit that there is a problem
  • Feelings of power
  • Aggression
  • Sadness, anxiety, or a feeling of emptiness

Pop Genius says

Banks has stated that Beggin For Thread is “about embracing your scratched edges. At times I feel crazy, but I wrote this song because sometimes I like that feeling.”

It seems pretty clear to me this woman is suffering from BPD. I can confidently state that belief, as I was married to a BPD woman.

She told me (with awe in her voice, about her OWN self) how incredible it felt to be in a manic state… How her mind would race, and she’s think thoughts way faster than anyone else, and how much smarter she was than everyone (she wasn’t). She told me about how good it felt, because you knew you were “special” in some way she couldn’t quite describe, and how she would just simply be filled with joy and she felt terrible that other people couldn’t experience it.

Here’s how her manic episodes looked to me: A complete bitch who’s moods went from sickeningly sweet to a screaming attacking banshee in the blink of an eye. An evil woman who had an obsessive need to exert some kind of control over every situation, and undermine me at ever turn. Someone who made up stories about me and spread them as rumors to her family to undermine and discredit me.

This is the frightening thing about BPD sufferers. They are some of the most horrible, manipulative people on earth. They LOVE having some kind of power over other people, and get off on using it abusively. If you fall into their clutches, you’re fucked. However, if you tell them that they’re ill, they’ll turn around and tell you no way, I’m a special person who’s the most caring loving thing you’ve ever met! I’m specially tuned into the universe, and let me tell you, it’s incredible!

Why is this important to TRP? It’s important because you have to know that BPD females are not to be trifled with. Their symptoms can be subtle, and many of them will be able to manage them until you’re roped in and they think it’s too late for you to cut loose.

90% of marriages where one partner has BPD fail.

If you meet a woman and find out she has BPD, there’s no way you’re fixing it. Next her.