Girl 1 (6.5)

She was sitting in the sun outside while I was inside. I thought I saw her looking my way from outside. She was cute, so was gonna approach regardless of IOIs. I was wanting to try more a Todd V "you're cute but look like trouble" kind of opener, but didn't' happen. I walk up and say hello, or some random shit about her sitting in the sun. Her face turns to a mild resting bitch face, and I sit down. I'm getting such bad "fuck off" energy from her, I literally pull out my phone and do absolutely nothing on it for 30 seconds. It was mildly awkward, she was stonewalled and I didn't know what to say. Grabbed my stuff to dip and she got up right before me.

Girl 2 (6?) tough to tell

Walking in front of me kind of far in hallway I said "stop" (she didn't hear me) to make a joke. We were going the same direction so outside I got a little closer and brought up her hat and what it was. She said she had many hats and I teased her about looking suspicious because she's always wearing a hat. She's still ahead of me (I know, not good) so I introduce myself. This stops her and she greets me back and now we're walking together with me slightly leading. Ask her what class she's heading to and says history. I mention how that's boring and that "I'll give you my # (I stopped to correct myself). What's your #, now if you get bored you can play me in 8-ball pool." Then I said something about how good I am at it. I know this wasn't logistics based, but we were right by the steps leading to the next level for her class. We're texting now, but I think messed up by trying to be efficient by combining a push-pull with a date idea. It was step skipping.

Blonde

I'm roaming and I see H facing a window deep in school work. I recall last time we spoke I just gave her charger and said "bye" only for me to see her two more times in the hallway and ignore each other. (Those times she did see me talking with a different girl). Just ignoring each other like that wasn't enjoyable to be honest. So now this time when I saw her, I emptied my mind our previous interactions. I forgave myself of the past and dropped any over the top efforts to game her or not seem needy. I enjoyed our flirty conversations that get physical and very touchy. Lowkey missed it. I wanted that, so I did that, 0 fucks given. Only thing I had in mind, push-pull.

Wasn't sure it was her, but I lean to her side and tap her. She got a small scare, followed by a laugh and thus our interaction begins. I'm just asking her about herself then I sit on the desk she was working at. She's facing me in the chair, so she's lower. She asks what I'm doing and shit tests me with "So, you're just planting yourself here now?" Arms crossed and all lol. Think I said something like "maybe, I'm just roaming." Talking away, I'm just asking her about her self and make another joke about starting a "therapy session" and charging her. She gives me an apple sauce for compensation and I'm like "how am I gonna eat this?" cause the spoons dirty. End up suggesting I use the cleaning chemicals to desensitize it (she laughs) then I start eating it by like using my tongue to lick it out of the cup. She's like that's gross and "I can't watch" turns her head away and giggles. I'm probably embarrassing her lol, I don't care.

Talk continues, and we start getting touchy, I've been teasing her a little and using a pull with nearly every push. Push-pull sprinkled with a little disqualification. She's giggling and we're both just vibing. I've now scooted her chair closer to me with me foot and my hands like on her knee again. I compliment her cute socks and little track outfit. I read this post on TRP this week and it made sense. (The post about asking her to describe you).

I asked her to describe me, and she couldn't because I haven't told her anything. We start discussing each other's past. I decide to experiment and voluntarily take the "beta bait." I get the impression she's having trouble connecting or feeling grounded to me despite getting the tingles. She asked if I've broken and bones and I told her I've been through worse. So I told her a little about a severe health problem I had (left our the origins and was ignored the science). It was a joint problem. I basically said how it lasted a few years, lightly touched on how painful it was and said when I see others who are handicapped, I have empathy for them and will be the one guy who does talk to them. She's like "I'm sorry you had to go through that." Topic goes back to her, and we're exploring each other's hands now and she's asking me about my rings. I'm vague about what they mean but ask you "what do you think this ring means? It's on the pinky." Was still super vague and said they did have meaning, but that's a conversation for another time. Ended it with a staring contest and and a little more talking. By the end we were much physically closer to each other. She was no longer defensive and was starting to explore me. We were talking for 1 whole hour. Now to end with a bang. Walking out the library together:

I open arms for hug (push). her about to hug. I step back last second and say "psych!" (pull) She's like "oh my gosh" and laughs.

Now I mentioned my main focus plus moments or points thoughout report, but I'll do a quick recap in bullet point format:

Focus: More push-pull. Time to start associating push with pull and develop a wit. Think another small goal to add on is not skipping steps (part of being present).

Use some form selective disqualification

Let go of past and be in the present moment. Enjoy the moment, this is my journey.

Experimented with vulnerability and revealed something about myself (hopefully not too much) to blonde. Will see if this gives both her and her emotions something to ground to.

I thought of trying a push-pull opener with girl 1. She was so stonewalled, I didn't even get to try the opener. Even if I went with something more experienced, I doubt she would've opened up.

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