Hi.

You know how you have to go through the 5 stages when you take the Red Pill? Yeah.

You know how you have to go through the 5 stages when you lose a long term relationship? Yeah, that too.

So I woke up this morning in the anger phase of both.

I AM FUCKING PISSED X2 RIGHT NOW!

I am furious at my soon to be ex and I'm angry that AWALT.

Before the Red Pill, I was confused and amazed at the shit women pull. The Red Pill frames and clarifies every single rotten fucking thing every woman has ever pulled on me in my whole life. Starting with my branch swinging mother, and on to my three failed LTR/marriages.

I'm north of 50 now. I've never really had trouble pulling pretty women, despite being essentially a greater beta. But when the inevitable (beta behavior induced) breakup happens, it hits me very hard. A piece of me dies. Before, when a relationship was going south, I'd just beta-up more, since obviously, I wasn't sensitive/caring/choreplaying/rich/nurturing enough - when really I wasn't MANLY enough.

I will not stay in these anger phases very long - especially for Red Pill - I am so happy that I found this philosophy. I will also be happy that I am free and single again.

You young guys who have found this have no idea how lucky you are. I've spent 25+ years of my adult life trying to beta my way into "everlasting true love." Because that's what you're SUPPOSED TO DO. Motherfucking lies!

Fortunately, I have decent genes and a killer job, so I'll be spinning plates soon enough - but the best part is that I get to do what the fuck I want to do, whenever the fuck I want to do it, from now on.

There now, I feel better!

/rant