Summary: Been swallowing the pill for what I think has been a little over a year now. 21 years old. 5"11 Black male. 14% BF. 200lbs. Have had sex with over 25 women, but I have attachment issues. Joined the USAF 8 months ago, been in training for the past 6 months. Been working my ass off. Left home, came back for leave before heading overseas, and hooked up with an HB6 (Dancer). Internalized a lesson from this experience, definitely.

Body: Just got out of training 2 weeks ago. For the last 6 months, I've been: Waking up at 5am at the LATEST, Boxing, Lifting, Running, Dancing, eating health(ier), and doing coding projects on the weekend. Also been learning a trade through the military (HVAC).

Aside from changes in my body and general athleticism, I've been reading Self-Help books for at least 30 minutes every day. I mainly cycled back and forth through Machiavelli and No Excuses by Bryan Tracy. This was so I could really apply the knowledge and combine the knowledge in both of those books to make myself more cunning and socially adept.

Basically, I've changed a ton since leaving. Before I left, there was this girl who I was trying to fuck. She's been an interest of mine for 10 months Fast forward to a week after I graduate. I was partying till 3am with my boys, and posted on Snapchat saying "Damn I want some food". She replied and said "me too". I told her to come pick me up, and she did with no question. We park her car outside of my friend's apartment and we sit and talk from like 4am-6. Sometime into our conversation, I randomly told her "You can kiss me if you want. :)" She kissed me and we started making out while I played with her pussy. She drove me back to her apartment, we showered, and I fucked her 3 times. I fucked her throat good, she came fast and hard the first time. We cuddled and went to sleep. After waking up around 1pm, I fucked her again. I told her my body was sore from working out so often, and she massaged my whole body twice. (She rolled me out with a baseball, then used her hands). We spent the entire weekend together(3 days). We shared our dreams and ambitions, and she was super supportive. My redpill defenses broke down and my blue pilled nature came out. She dropped me off at the train station on Monday Morning before her classes started. I told her "I Believe In You." and gave her a long, romantic kiss before walking off.

2 Days later, I caught myself missing her heavily. I called her, and told her how I thought it was rare to find a woman who's actually supportive of her man. She's smart, multitalented (dancer, scientist), and she has a nice ass and a tight pussy. She had me hooked (or so I thought).

One day later (Today) I remembered my readings, and all the fundamental red pill truths came to mind:

  • She's Not yours, it's only your turn. Somebody fucked her throat before me, and somebody will while I'm gone.
  • If she finds you attractive, she'll make it easy for you.
  • There's no such thing as The One/Unicorn/Snowflake.
  • Any time a woman is treating you like royalty, it's all a part of her sexual strategy. She's trying to make you into a beta for her own gain. This ESPECIALLY applies to you if you're ambitious, successful or have a lot of potential.
  • It's up to YOU as a man to make sure that you do everything in your power to prevent yourself from being manipulated. I allowed myself to get too comfortable in that situation.

Lesson Learned

Men, you need to realize that you truly are the prize. A year ago, I would have been struggling to get this chick to LIKE me, let alone fuck me. Now, she's trying to make me into a Beta. She's trying to challenge me for dominance over myself. She wants to win me. That means that in some way, I've reached a level of Alpha /Attractiveness. Now's not the time for me to give up. I have to keep pressing forward with my goals and ambitions regardless of the attention and treatment that I'm getting from her (or other women for that matter). It's going to be an endless cycle of improvement, and that's what TRP is all about. Thank you.