This is my first post here - I've been a lurker for a few months now.

I am 20 and for most of my life I was a pretty stereotypical beta. My best friend for about a decade is my same age - and she is getting married in a week. In fact, she is the reason I'm here now. We were always on and off - never as a relationship - but in terms of sex starting from 15. When we were thinking of a relationship Just recently we had sex for a while, then she didn't talk to me for an entire month, then before I know it she tells me she's getting married (beta me thought I was in love) to an older man who is financially sound.

Fast forward a few months: I haven't seen her since, I've started working out, reading TRP, and overall boosting my confidence and characteristics. I recently got an invitation from her over the phone and I told her I would come.

My issue here is that that same week I've been invited to go on a trip with a huge group of my guy friends - in which we'll probably do drugs and alcohol for a week.

I'm torn at what to do here. She clearly is starting a new life, and I am just as much - but part of me feels I owe it to myself or her to go. However, I think my final decision will be not to go.

Need some perspective, please.