I thought I had swalloed the red pill. I thought I had cured my self of oneitis but I can't stop being a blue pill bitch. Got friendzoned by a oneitis, and the RP mindset was going great for a week, untill she started talking to me again. I could feel the BP screaming inside me, so I just walked away from her. And the thoughts started again, what if she just DOES like the new me? Deep down I knew I should't be thinking from a scarcity mind set, but I can't stop thinking about a random fucking girl who rejected me twice. Need help fully swallowing the pill, and finally defeating the beta mindset. I don't seek sympathy from this community, what I seek is help. My oneitis is best described as a quote in fight club "she's like the scar in the top if your mouth that heals if you don't toungue it, but I can't help my self". Recently I've been starting to hate myself for not being good enough, and on a logical level I understand these thoughts will only lead towards a shittier path but emotionally im wrecked. I wish to defeat my inner pussy once and for all. Bash me, call me beta, but know that atleast I'm over seeking sympathy. Only writing here because I won't talk to anyone outside these forums about TRP and I've recieved better advice from RPers that actual real life friend I've known for fucking years.