Over the last few years I was wary about TRP because I was wary of becoming overly misogynistic and amoral. But fuck it I've relented because honestly life isn't going the way I want it.

Many years ago I read The Game and really liked it. It opened up my eyes a lot. But Strauss also had a way of being (or at least seeming like) a good two-shoes. FUCK that. NLP. I want to learn that. I want to be able to manipulate people or rather have them bend to my will. This isn't a game. Life has made this necessary. It's sink or swim time. I'm about to lose the roof over my head soon and a mounting debt.

I avoided reading the 48 Laws of Power because I was afraid it was too dark or morally ambiguous. But as a wise person once said, "integrity only works if everyone else is being ethical".

So I've decided to read it this month. I'm half-way through.

As far as seduction goes. IDGAF about women. It's a luxury. I want money and lots of it. I had a girlfriend 6 months ago and broke it up with her because I lowered my standards and was not pleased with the young whore she turned out to be. I did not want commitment and simply keep fucking her but eventually she nagged me into a relationship and I caved. Terrible. I don't want to let this happen again.

I'm also cutting my mother off. Law#10 Avoid Unhappy and Unlucky People. I did this before and my quality of life went up significantly only to get sucked back in.

I also realize I sound slightly cartoonish but I assure you I'm serious. I need to make changes in my life and in a big way.

I don't want this to be permanent mentality but I believe it absolutely necessary to take action. I just don't believe it is sustainable. I have a career and went to school with a bunch of SJWs which is another reason I was wary about trp. I didn't want it to rub off on me and then damage my earning potential. But there are too many truths to ignore.

Some, I've already internalized.

Namely, women WILL cheat. This isn't a bad thing necessarily. If they are in heat, they will cheat. I just accept it as a fact of life. If you are able to get a girl all hot and bothered she will mostly come home with you. And there's nothing wrong with that. I'm not angry or upset over it. Women use men for nice things. This one is a little harder to accept because even a nice girl can still find a way to be exploitative if she sees it (this is based on what some of my ex's who for the most part were ethical people told me).

So I ask, show me the dark side so I can regain control. I see the world for how it is. Help me make it as it should be. Teach me the principles necessary to stop being beta and start kicking life in the ass.