I'm sure it's something that a lot of dudes think about, but at the same time I'm almost embarrassed to ask. First off I'm not new to pickUp at all. I've fucked girls who did porn - girls in elevators, bathrooms, hot girls, "curvy" girls - the whole spectrum. I actually made a new account just for this question - because, honestly it's tough for me to ask.

My girl is absolutely in love with me - before we were seeing each other monogamously, I asked her if she had any other perspective boyfriends. I used to do this right after I slept with a girl, especially if the sex was good, because I knew that they probably come back to me anyway, and I wanted to show them that I had no intention of being a monogamous boyfriend. Eventually, somehow or another we got in the conversation regarding one of the guys that she was dating at the time, and she said that he had a humongous dick. Now on a logical level, I know that I have a ton to offer. I am a strong, healthy, purposeful, masculine dude who is into extremely awesome and dominant sex, and I also have a big dick (a little under 7inches and slightly wider than normal - Not huge, but big. )

Fast forward a couple months and we're in a monogamous relationship. We have a fanfkingtastic connection, and She's even you holding to my intense desire to have a relationship that incorporates threesomes with other girls, so long as there's no penetration on my part.

She is absolutely devoted to me. We have a Dom sub relationship, and she's incredibly happy to do what I tell her.

Even still , On a relatively regular basis, I think about my dick in comparison to this other guy. This guy was tall but not even good looking ( looks like Spock, ) I'm sure I'm not alone in this, but I have intrinsic desire to have the greatest fucking dick that has ever fucked this girl. When I'm in her, I'm deep but I don't think I'm exactly stretching her out. Sometimes I think of someone else filling her up more and how she probably yearns for that on some physical level. She complimented me on my dick, (and it is a fantastic Dick) but sometimes I start thinking, well it's probably not nearly as big as that other guys. It's incredibly maladaptive behavior, and honestly I'm pissed at myself for it. There is something visceral about girls and dicks and, like it or not, they check out packages. My girlfriend also moans and occasionally humps in her sleep and sometimes I wonder if she's thinking about someone else.

When I wasn't seeing her monogamously this guy was kinda in her "rotation" too. In a moment of weakness I went through her phone while we weren't monogamous and saw a video this guy sent of him jacking off and her replying "so sexy". I've since told her about it and it's all good - but that image and knowing that she responded like that killed me at the time.

(Sidenote his dick didn't actually look "that" big in the vid but I have no reason to believe she was lying.)

The girl I'm with has kids, and I keep thinking that she's with me because I was the only guy foolish enough to want to monogamous relationship. I doubt that this is true, she's a really beautiful girl and is had prospects before, but it crosses my mind. The truth is, outside of the tremendous of insecurity expressing in this letter, i'm a super cool, dominant, sweet, fun guy. Also moving along this line of thought I should also clarify and say that I'm not supporting her financially at all, and if anything she probably helps me out in terms of cooking for me and Stuff more than I help her .

Logically I know that she's with me because I'm actually incredibly strong, calm, and masculine dude who she honestly can't help but love. But I think about her fantasizing about a huge Dick - honestly it takes up huge portions of my day and sometimes I feel like I want to die.

How can I get over this ? What's a reframe that actually works Login or register to post.