Hi, I am reading about TRP since about half a year and implementing it the best I can since about two months. Before that time I was good with girls (could get easily 5s and 6s), was working out (just bodyweight, running) and had an optimistic world view. I was also very positive and funny towards girls, they liked to spend time with me and easily "fell in love" with me (whatever that means know). And I also kind of developed temporary feelings, because I loved the way women looked and the way they got in touch with their femininity. It was something that was driving me and amping my game up. I would say I was part BP and part RP.

Since I started to read and implement TRP I am feeling really depressed. The truth really fucking hurts. Know it stopped hurting. All there is left is emptiness and maybe sadness.

I have a plate. Last time she said something interesting that kind of resonated with me. She said that I was stone cold, without emotions. But how can I feel joy (or enjoy the moment with her) if I understand and really SEE NOW that they are all the same. It's like the puzzle is already built up and you know what to expect.

I started lifting, I went partial Monk Mode and I am getting now into full Monk Mode. I also meditate regularly. I am changing my diet and reading only TRP stuff. And it drags me down.

I know it's a process and it takes time to get "full" RP, but I would really need some guidance since there is no one around my life that lives or understands TRP.

How can I feel more joy and accept the RP with more positivity and fun? Is it wise to stop reading RP material for a while and concentrate on something philosophical that is more "positive"? Or do I need to hit rock bottom?