Depression over exposing my vulnerabilities

actuallythink · 2021-01-24T14:23:03+00:00

The archetypal alpha doesn’t give a shit if he overshared something. You’re beta-izing yourself by thinking you’ve fucked up and need to fix it. Just move on. Worst case scenario some people like you less. Best case it probably added some depth to your character.

alphabetasquare · 2021-01-24T16:55:37+00:00

Jordan Peterson is the best answer for you right now. Watch all his lecture maps and meaning, on personality and the one on bible if possible, Read the 12 rules for life. Is the easiest perspective that could help you right now.

cglehosit · 2021-01-24T16:13:17+00:00

Jesus Christ, what the fuck are you talking about? You were traumatized to the point of PTSD because you talked to some college aged bitch about your “deep emotional shit?” Sounds like you’re a drama mama. You are not in some Kardashian reality show, this is not a teen show sit com either where you are the star and everyone thinks you’re some deep thinking contemplative hot guy. No one gives a shit about your life except maybe your mother. Get yourself into a gym, read the side bar, and then pick up some new physical hobby that beats the shit out of you (like boxing) so you quit getting butthurt by shitty teen time conversation with college girls.

EternalMangekyou777 · 2021-01-24T18:19:27+00:00

I've been in your shoes before .

What I've done to get out of it was to move out,

go to a different environment, social circles.

You can't undo what was done in the past but

you can build something anew elsewhere.

AwesomeDog59 · 2021-01-24T18:07:50+00:00

I did more or less the same thing you did, 2 years ago and felt exactly like you described in your post. It sucked for a while, but as time passed I realized most people have the attention span of a monkey and forget most of the shit they hear, say or do, you're the only one still thinking about it.

Meet new people, outside of your social circle, quit thinking your social circle is everything, your social circle should change drastically over your life as you grow up and you should only keep the friends that are worth keeping. Quit thinking your 'reputation' is now fucked, let people gossip if they want, if someone doesn't have the balls to say something to your face you shouldn't worry about what they might be saying behind your back.

I know it's a cliche that time is the ultimate healer but it unironically is. Pick up a hobby, read, work out, meditate, you said somewhere you wanna try some shrooms, DO NOT DO DRUGS WHEN YOU'RE UNDER EMOTIONAL STRESS, if you wanna experiment with this kinda shit do so when you're happy and have a stable mental health. Try being consistent with your hobbies to turn them into habits, soon enough you'll forget all about whatever happened with these girls.

If you're googling your simptoms (pun intended) and finding results that you have a mental disorder that soldiers have after killing dozens of people and loosing their closest friends in the brutal conditions of war, I think you shouldn't listen to them, if you want a clear answer go see a mental health professional, don't play doctor yourself.

I'm now glad for the hardships I had to endure throughout my life, they made me stronger, they made me who I am today, they can do the same to you.

Wellbidlo · 2021-01-24T14:30:18+00:00

I might get banned for this comment or get labeled as a schizo but fuck it.

Mental disorders and diseases are a lot of times labeled as a "demons" by both dummy Twitter girls and religious literature of all kind but what if I told you those aren't just a metaphors but a "real", parasitic, interdimensional beings both feeding from human suffering / brain malfunction and sucking energy.

Doesn't matter if a priest / messiah in holy book of your choosing comes and "banish" such "being" or you'll eat some pill prescribed by 45yo psychiatrist, it's mostly (placebo-ical or not) belief of remedy.

With this info, you can both overcome things with your own opinions on state of the matter, tbh not worth my time writing more to get downvoted by bots but I feel it's sufficient.

IntrepidLawyer · 2021-01-24T15:27:33+00:00

If things you've mentioned could've hurt me I'd already be dead. A decade later you'll realize you eventually just get used to not caring at all. I know firsthand.

People are trash, why would you value their opinion?

mirrormantra · 2021-01-24T19:27:07+00:00

I don’t think there’s anything wrong with having a period of redemption and emotional contemplation. It’s not healthy to ignore your inner state, but the mistake was in sharing it with someone you were pursuing.

I’ve been there, a few times. This is one of the most frustrating reasons men don’t open up about their emotions and vulnerability. When they do they are looked down upon. Women don’t wanna know. Nothing makes a woman’s panties dryer than male tears.

Fuck anyone that says you should think of yourself as weaker for having these feelings. It’s called being a self-aware multi layered human being. The issue is how you express these feelings.

My advice would be only share your vulnerable side with either family members, or very close male friends. You need to be able to drain these emotions from your self to be truly powerful, but you need to compartmentalise how you go about it otherwise you’ll be a weeping mess around anyone and everyone.

Journaling has been a massive help to me. It’s like being your own therapist. Except there’s no judgment, no embarrassment and it’s free. Maybe try that as a way of coming to terms with yourself. By journaling you can transmit the emotional energy from your body into written form, which will have a huge effect in letting you overcome your vulnerability. By clearing your conscience in this way your confidence will naturally return. All the best brother.

HeroeZurdo · 2021-01-24T14:16:01+00:00

I have the same problem. If you wa na chat hmu

bachbozo · 2021-01-24T18:14:34+00:00

Heroic doses of mushrooms, the carnivore diet, Buteyko breathing, drinking water treated by reverse osmosis and exercise in nature cured me of my severe OCD (would have spurts where I was convinced I was dying of whatever illness at the time, couldn’t stop thinking about blinking, thought I was schizo, etc; super gnarly) and less reliant on female validation. Take from that what you will, good luck.

vze1fm8gn · 2021-01-24T19:13:18+00:00

In long run it doesn't matter. All of us have been through such phases where we feel our masks are suddenly gone.

I would suggest seeking therapy if you can afford. Otherwise be with guy friends who will always be there for you and spend few weeks detoxing and just doing fun.

viffle123 · 2021-01-24T21:09:02+00:00

To make all of this even worse, I heavily exaggarated everything and made up a lot of shit that didn't even happen. I didn't stay true to myself and since I am a heavily conscientous person it took a toll on my mental health. I guess that's what you get when you play with someone's mind. Eternal suffering. I didn't value and appreciate my own unique characteristics along with the stuff I already had. I acted like a God and even though I was a helpful and sincere person. Now I don't even know if I was kind to others for the sake of helping them or to feed my ego. Existential crisis at it's finest. In high school, I ignored all women because I was 'too cool' for these basic bitches. Now I see they all the same. Who would like a whiny bitch with inner child problems that are beyond comprehension. Now I don't know if I'm a bitch or a man anymore. I feel like my personality cracked like a fuckin' coconut and I am heavily guilty and burdened by the severity of my words and actions, because I was living in the fucking moment and didn't think of the consequences. I had street cred, to some extent. Now I have bitch cred, to a large one. I thank everyone for their support, I will keep you updated regarding my decision to continue living or take my life Samurai style. My manliness, integrity and respect were the things I have always sworn to protect. I've watched countless Red Pill videos, read a shit ton of philosophy books, Marcus Aurelius for example was my favorite and I feel like I've let myself down by not putting anything I've learned into practice.

EDIT: Might aswell turn to Buddhism to prepare myself for death that's inevitable anyways. Maybe I become a spiritual leader instead of a rapper. Who knows.

viffle123 · 2021-01-25T05:44:18+00:00

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viffle123 · 2021-01-24T21:43:59+00:00

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Title	Depression over exposing my vulnerabilities
Author	Back_To_Crack
Upvotes	46
Comments	54
Date	January 24, 2021 1:08 PM UTC (5 years ago)
Subreddit	Posted in /r/askTRP
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