The context: I've known this girl, Jane, for about 2 years during college, and ever since then (I'm 25, she's 28). I've had my fair share of flings and lots of fun with girls in the past and recently, just to get it out there, since this is trp. Jane and I hit it off from the start, having a deep connection and being great friends. I never caught on she liked me, but after I did, we've had brief flings here and there. After she comes home in August from med school, we hang out a lot, have lots of great sex, and talk about us. We've always had a thing for each other but never did anything about it.

I know unicorns don't exist but this girl is damn close. Honest to a fault. Puts up with me being a total asshole and dick. Successful and driven (she has 2 degrees, working on a 3rd and will be a surgeon soon). Trustworthy. Communicates well for a girl - will come out and tell me most times what's bothering her. Caring. Great cook. Organized. Independent. Fun. Responsible. Family oriented. The list goes on.

So we decided, why not try being bf/gf. She left for her clinical rounds and since then (up to beginning of November) we've done what most long distance couples do. I started to freak out about the lack of seeing her, lack of sex, etc, and said I needed time to think. She won't be done clinical rounds for another 1.5 years. She gave it to me. I just saw her this past thanksgiving break and it was great being with her again. She asked me what my decision was about us, and I told her that I couldn't make an empty promise and hurt her again, and that I don't think I can commit. I found out she loved me and that my decision destroyed her. She said she could no longer talk to me and never wanted to see me again, out of too much pain. Hearing that hit home and has been bothering me since. I have feelings for her, not on the same level she has, but maybe they'd grow to be more.

Now I know some of you may say I'm too young for serious commitment, but this girl is without a doubt someone I'd be hard pressed to find again. She's even willing to do her surgical residency based on where I live if we were together. Did I make the right decision guys because I'm young and can still have fun, or did I let something great go? Can't tell.