As the title. Had depression so decided to fight it by getting some plates because why not. Spun plates and after having experienced all this degeneracy, I feel so fucking empty and lost. Girls smoking, girls drinking, girls fucking around. I don't want to touch that shit. And moreso, nothing is giving me joy in life. The only pleasant experience I have is gym because my trainer is nice and encouraging. Apart from that I want to blow my brains out. Please recommend something to get back on tracks. It's killing me.