This is in the sidebar, which I’ve read. Right now I’m in the moment and I really need some advice. It’s strange because when I’m not in the moment, I have a pretty solid understanding of the do’s and don’ts and whatnot on how to actually practice TRP. But now I’m left uncertain.

Running it because the last three days, I initiated sex and she turned it down or showed some clear as day signs of not being into it. Ideally I’d go through with it anyway, and in the past I normally do and it’s enough to get her into it anyway. But today I just decided, enough of that, and I decided I’d leave.

So I left. She showed some abnormal clingy behavior as I made my way no big deal to the door, said I had things to do and made my way out the door. I tried to do it in the most emotionless way possible. I thought I did a good job. She went out of the house and stood there and looked at me while I left. I remained straight faced and unphased.

I got home and she has called me twice and has texted me telling me she is going out. I don’t really care, but that could be the emotion talking.

I thought I had a pretty good understanding of dread, in theory. In practice it’s a little harder to internalize and act as I’ve read. I’m filled with uncertainty on how to perform it. I ignored her calls and I’m going out tonight. In fact, I decided I’d go out now instead because she could drive past my house and I don’t want her to think I’m just chilling at home. Aiming to get her to wonder what it is I’m doing.

Is this really all I need to be doing? Just go on with my life as if she’s not part of it?

Unfortunately her texts got marked as read because the convo was open prior to this because of logistics, so she knows I read her message.