So I've been struggling to get over and move on from my ex for about a year now.. My friends think I'm a pathetic little shit and post breakup my reputation went down. Like we all know, my ex moved on pretty fast and is now whoring around with a BB. I want some way to get revenge. To make her feel jealousy hatred and have all those emotions bundled up just how I am. I've been thinking about her literally all the time and she's probably forgotten about me. Goddam that makes me so mad. I finally blocked her number, which is her first point of contact. I still have her on Facebook, but I feel if I block her then I look butt hurt and she will be happy. It's insane how happy it makes her that I'm suffering. We didn't end on bad terms idk how the tables turned. Talk to me guys. She was a pretty solid catch and pretty hot with tits.

I've been lifting and taking my energy out on the weights. I won't stop that. The issue is more of me fantasizing and using my imagination about their sex life and I picture them having sex. I know it's completely different which doesn't help calm me down. In addition, Ik she's a bad girl and I imagine all the crazy sex she has with the fucking BB. Ugh. I want to GFTOW and whore around like how she did. It's different from spinning plates. You don't have sex3-4 times a day with a plate. I'm guessing maybe once or twice a week. Fml I'm such an incel which doesn't help my confidence.

Also I'm super fucking angry. I'm literally going crazy.