So after alot of bullshit and bluepill propaganda i finally got with my oneitis ( my unicorn ) a month ago...and even fucked her a few times but now i just hate myself.

I don't even feel like winning after all the bluepill bullshit i did before we actually became something....all the pussy ass texts and dealing with alot of her bullshit and her telling me she kissed some guy while we were talking about actually being together and these thoughts are just killing me.

She's pretty nice to me now, and when we're next to each other everything is pretty fine...but after i leave to go home i just hate myself...this all cuz i know all of TRP truths and i can't see this working out, not after the blue pill bullshit i pulled before actually getting with her.

Anyone got any advice on this? The only logical thing to do is to leave and go with my life but i'm happy when i'm with her....i'm just jealous and a pussy when i'm not and i hate myself for all the shit she pulled on me before.

I just can't enjoy the ride ....i can't enjoy my turn.

Do i just leave?