This is going to be a long one, I initially swallowed the redpill after I broke up with my girlfriend 4 months ago. Same girlfriend as I got back with her and things were great for a while. We live in different towns but always have a week together and then a weeks break. I'm now in a position where I can move to her town, she's pushing for it for me to go for a 2 bedroom house.

Things were good for awhile except one of the biggest red flags is that she legit has major depression issues. She withdraws from me, talks to me like shit, disrespects me and turns everything on me. One of the reasons we broke up is because i was sure she was withdrawing from the relationship and seeing someone else, now I know its not that, it is clinical depression.

I've been there for her as her rock. Found out she cut herself last week. It upset me the fact she hid it from me till she finally confessed up. She's 34 and I see no signs of her wanting help. She tells me to read books on it, to understand depression. She uses it as an excuse for shitty behavior and she has grown more and more unaffectionate.

When I go down to see her, she's always tired and wanting to sleep. Rejects me when I initiate for sex, despite that I fuck her good and eat her out. She said she'd be happy to go without sex and that i should expect sex 1-2 times a week.

She sleeps on arguments and time with her has been disappointing to say the least. She never wants sex. She never wants to be affectionate. She's cold and empty. Okay with just talking to me like shit. She makes no effort for me anymore. No make up but gladly does it when she goes out. Her kisses when she sees me are like a brush, there's no ommph, and no drive.

Its got to the point that I just go down expecting nothing to happen now. Depression is hard but she's got an amazing family, brilliant career, home and can do whatever she wants.

I've tried understanding her depression. I've accommodated it. I'm her rock. But now its got to the point where I feel like I am dating a narcissist who only gives a shit about her own feelings. She lacks empathy, whenever I feel shit she goes, "I don't know what to say." or "Maybe, you should see a doctor." There's just no support on her part.

I've tried everything. Being there unconditionally. Withdrawing myself, nope she can withdraw alot longer. Dread, im succeeding in my career and lifting looking better each time. Even had girls hit on me in front of her.

I'm also despising her feminist ways and know that she could never be the future mother of my children because apparently toy guns are inappropriate gifts for children lol

It's become evident that I am Beta Bucks. Wants to always go out for meals. Wants me to move closer to her in a 2 bed house. Gets excited when she hears im doing well financially but almost punishes me and shows disinterest when I have bad financial weeks.

I'm in the middle of getting an house in her town and I am suppose to be taking her to Paris and I know I cant do it. I don't think she deserves to go on holiday. I also dont think i should move and that we should break up.

I'm honestly done. So why am I writing this? Because I'm finding it hard to break away. I think I have oneitis in the sense I can't bear the thought of breaking up with her. I also feel like I'd be abandoning her through her depression. Am I right to trust my gut when it comes to the fact that I feel shes not treating me right? Is break up the only way in this case?