-- Backstory --

I have graduated in august 2014 and I am 23 years old. Fucked around for a few months. Was pretty much a wreck. Decided that before I go on with my life I need to fix my anxiety and my self-defeating mindset. I was very anxious in social situations. I completely fixed that by getting out there and quitting bad habits.

A lot improved in my life. Started taking lifting more serious. Overall more confident. I was not seeking validation in every social situation. Eventually I met a girl, extremely cute and sexy. She did some weird shit which I did not understand, like ignoring me and random shit tests. Through this I found out about The Red Pill. I also saw that my life was still not where I wanted it to be.

-- The core --

Anyways. The Red Pill gave me a big kick on my ass. The reality of my situation. I am extremely low SMV in the work/money department.

I do educate myself: I am learning a foreign language, reading about SEO and implementing it, doing small design projects under my own name, make up my own/fictional projects to get better at certain techniques and make my portfolio bigger.

BUT, I still don't have a full time job or a job in my field. I don't have a real goal I am working towards. It's all just to get a better portfolio. And all this educating does not give me any "work experience" or money. I work a shitty part-time job, just to get some money in. I feel like a bum from time to time.

I have been rejected around 7 times now in the last 4 months. I don't care about being rejected and I know I could have approached a lot more companies. But I know that my skills are just too much all over the place. I know basic HTML + CSS, I can design, video editting and audio production/mixing. I just have a lot to learn and I want to learn. To get more work experience I need a job.

I am thinking of starting a clothing line. I have a concept and I want to do it. Still, this does not earn me money or get me work experience.

How do you guys deal with this?