I was told to post here because you guys give real advice. I'm about to be 22, and I've fucked 12 women. Most of which I was in relationships with.

I need a woman in my life. Without one I'm an anxious wreck. Any relationship I get into, I end up getting mad for them not being what I want them to be. I get so entitled, and end up fucking everything up. I just got out of a tiny 4 month relationship two weeks ago and she started ignoring me and I'm still texting her every day trying to fix things. I just sent her one earlier saying can we at least be friends I hate people walking out of my life. Such a fucking beta thing to do. I blocked her shortly after that message. Thing is I have to work with her.

Anyways I'm so torn up about some small speck in my life. I'm an anxious fucking wreck. My last 3 relationships have been the same way. I want to change. I don't want to be a needy little bitch. But my life is so bland and shitty I don't know what to do with myself.

Any advice is greatly appreciated. I want to be great and I don't want to be a little beta bitch any longer.