Basically when I go out with my friends to get girls. When I dance with hot girls at the club. I keep feeling unworthy and a pit in my stomach forms remembering what I did 4 years ago when I was 18 and a virgin... I knowingly kissed two trans... One of which was still in transition and had a mans body.. I didn't know he/she had a penis still.. Had a mans body.. She or he was wearing a jacket but face looked just like a female with all the makeup and dim lighting... But later I realized had a penis... and a mans body from the selfies sent to me.. I was mortified.. I had a tranny fetish then but since then I don;t anymore and I wish I never touched my lips to another biological mans.

If any girl found out they would loose interest.. I know. I didn't know she was pre op and had a penis or mans body but I still knew she was trans. I like the tabooness of it. Regret it now. I wish I only touched my lips to a beautiful CIS girls lips only. I am only attracted to biological females because they are built by nature to be female. Any tips? Do I just accept it? Tell girls of my sick unmanly past? Or just give up. Become a cuckold, let guys who never kissed a trans girl take over and fuck my hot girlfriend as I patheticly be her beta cuck and jack off to porn. Im 100 percent serious too which fucking kills me