I met a girl on tinder last February just before lockdown. It was great but when I met her she was overweight and then started gaining weight during lockdown. On top of it she dropped out of college twice so I encouraged her to go to school and be serious this time. After losing a little weight and doing well academically we could get serious.

Well 9 months comes around and she’s failed one of two classes she was taking and hadn’t lost weight, but was tired of waiting to get serious and broke up with me.

I’m in an area far from home and I work in a high risk Covid career so I can’t be around my friends or family because I was so exposed. I actually caught Covid immediately after getting broken up with.

So now I’m alone in a remote area with no prospects and all I can think of is cuddling her and her dogs. I’ve seen two different counselors over the last five weeks and each day I get more depressed.

Today I bought a large container to attempt to drown myself only to find out its impossible to do outside of a body of water because of the intense rejection and fear of drowning. So next my plan is to go buy a 9mm and some hollow points and call it a day.

She wasn’t that great on paper but I loved her a lot and I’ve had break ups but I’ve never been this empty. I tried texting her and go blocked, I tried adding her on Facebook and got blocked now I can’t even get back with her if I she wanted.

Any advice?