My story: Girlfriend of 10 years, since we were teens. Recently got engaged about 1 year ago.

I didn't know it until about 2 years ago, and I've probably been beta a lot because of letting my guard down, but this woman confirms every RP truth there is. It's insane. If I even act a LITTLE beta, she legit gets pissed off and we fight. When she considers me the alpha, she acts like a child around me, all happy and such.

Just today, we had a great day. I was alpha the entire day- I fucked her brains out in the morning, we went on a hike in the afternoon and we came home. She was happy all day. Even gave me a massage. On my drive home, I was falling asleep, so I called her. She didn't answer. I called her about 17 times, no answer. Then 10 minutes later I call again, and she Answers- we fight. She said she was sleeping, I'm calling her a liar, she says I'm being needy, etc. BETA TO THE MAX!!!

My only question is, do I have to be alpha forever around this chick? I know AWALT. But I'm so scared that one day I'm going to fuck this up and she'll divorce me because I'm not alpha enough or because she finds a chad thundercock and I turn beta. It's so weird. She respond SO SO SO WELL to alpha behaviors And puts down beta ones. But of course, in her female brain, she thinks the opposite way.

How do I deal with these shit tests for the rest of my life without going insane? How do you guys do it? Also tonight, we're on the couch, she feels my boner and says she's tired and to put it away. 10 minutes later, I accidentally brush up against her with my boner and she WENT APESHIT. Screaming at me, saying put it away, what is wrong with me, etc. I stared at her and smiled and winked. It kind of worked. Which affirmed my RP mindset even more....