I need to change my state of mind and thinking I feel emasculated and feel like my self confidence internally isn’t what it should be. Idk who to talk to. I know the root of my problems and idk who I can talk to, I feel like if I talked to a therapist they wouldn’t understand. I get in my own head, and make up shit that isn’t true. I feel like It’s the end of the world when it’s not. I tell myself I’m not good enough while being completely blind to the fact that I’m 100% good enough, I have like this stupid fucking imposter syndrome. It pisses me off. My whole life I haven’t been positive enough and I want to change that. I haven’t watched porn in idk how long, but I used to have a porn addiction and It fucked with me and made me self conscious and made it hard to continue escalating, I wouldn’t be in the mindset I’m supposed to be and it fucked with me. Like I said I feel emasculated, part of it is due to the fucked up shit I’ve read about racial superiority of black people over other races which I realize is completely bullshit, idk wtf is wrong with me, I’m so lost in my own head. Everything outside of my head is fine, I work out and have a good paying self employed job. I’m literally in my own head making up shit that isn’t true and making myself feel like shit