Hello friends!

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I am trying to journal a bit so I can own this. (day 1, I failed real bad)

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So to make along story short i was in a very long very committed relationship.... and its over

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I live in Minneapolis and finally, I am starting to feel like i can get back out there. I have done a lot of the easy things, dating apps mostly. I have had some success at getting dates but that is basically all i got. I would say I'm a 7. I am 6 foot and I have worked out for the past few years so have a lean athletic look (although I am not genetically blessed when it comes to visible abs...). Also I have grey in my beard but try to own it.

I went out tonight after hanging out with some friends, unfortunately at 31 all my friends are either married, or in committed relationships so nights out end early. This means I have to go solo and fuck I suck at that (when I had a GF it was easy to talk to anyone solo.. now its all anxiety).

I went out tonight a little buzzed. I walked into bars but didn't want a drink (I didn't want to get drunk). Since I didn't have an obvious place to go, I ended up walking around an not seeing anything obvious i walked out of the bar. I did this a handful of times. Normally I can talk to anyone on the side of the road but when going "out" I cant. It feels fake to me I don't mind clubs (I haven't been in them for about the past 6 years though) but when I see an attractive girls and their entourage of boys who look like 12 y/o, I think, fuck I'm old and walk away. I also cant find a comfortable place to hang out to calm down or try and catch eyes, so I end up walking around the bar a few times and leaving. I know I could focus on friends of friends, or play the tinder game but i want to meet people... I want to be able to approach people. Today i failed miserably i got stamps on my hands some dates through tinder but I wasn't able to handle a club...

Depending on when i get done with stuff tomorrow i think i am going to pick a specific club and try and hang out there for 2 hours and talk to at least two girls... Thanks for reading, we will see how tomorrow goes =/

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31anddone...