I'm a 26 year old guy trying to learn game. I don't really have any experience approaching in public, any girl I met in the past was thru apps. I'm in the very beginning stages of this and need to address certain issues as I'm not truly ready to start approaching in earnest. Basically my problem is I've always been kind of a loner and normally I don't go out or interact with people very much. My idea of a fun evening is chillin alone in my apartment reading books or listening to music and smoking weed. Going to bars or public places to try and meet women seems like it would just feel like a chore and wouldn't be fun for me. Usually I don't really like interacting with people much and I can never convince myself to try and approach, even if I see women I find attractive when I'm out running errands or something. In addition I have a very cynical view of sex/dating/women/relationships. In the past I was tempted by the blackpill, and I'm still struggling with not falling into that trap since I naturally gravitate to more pessimistic lines of thinking.

I also get the impression that most girls want an extroverted guy with a lot of friends and an active social life, which absolutely isn't me. On one hand, I desire to have a better dating life that I'm happy with, but on the other hand my inherent nature is that of an antisocial semi-loner. It feels like this is hard-wired into my psyche and I can't change it. Even when I was a kid I was really quiet all the time and outside of school I was usually hanging out in my room by myself instead of meeting up with friends. In my life I'm the truest introvert I've ever known. I always joke that I would make a very good monk as I'm mostly solitary, I know classical languages like Latin and Sanskrit, spend a lot of my time reading ancient/medieval texts, and I have comparatively little experiences with pursuits of the flesh lol.

My question is, can I even really learn this stuff if I'm a solitary guy who doesn't like interacting with people most of the time? How can I expect to have a better dating life if I have these hard-wired personality traits that are so deeply entrenched within my mind? I also looked up attachment theory once and it's clear I have dismissive avoidant attachment if I'm getting the name right. Fellow monk-men of seddit, what has helped you? Can I improve despite this mental paradox? How can I come to see all this as fun instead of something I have to force myself out of the house to do?