Everything went well: high value, good emotional connection, much comfort established. I knew I would finally loose my virginity. I made her cum with my tongue. She got down on me.

But then while she blew me, my dick became soft. Her look killed me inside, she wanted to fuck me but I couldn't get hard anymore. Wtf?? My whole body was under ugly non-sexual tension/stress.

My last orgasm was fucking 4,5 months ago! Sometimes I feel like the horniest motherfucker on earth coz I've quit fapping and I have random rock hard boners from hell. I thought I would cum in 2 sec but now the last thing I could imagine happend.

It's ridiculous. I feel horrobile with every ounce of my 18 year old body...

Can someone relate and/or give me some new perspektive? Any advise on how to go about it and how to prevent it from ever happening again?

For reading and commenting I thank you from the bottom of my heart!