How can I do it? I'm a late bloomer, i'm 25 and just experienced my first girlfriend. I've had a few short term relationships with girls and one night stands but that's it prior to my first real gf.

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Long story short - Met a girl off tinder. She had every red flag in the book - social media addict, posted very revealing pictures of her self online, revealing clothing, uneducated, abusive ex bf etc.

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At the time of meeting her, i lost my job, i was isolated and had low self esteem.

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All of a sudden this girl became the only girl i had to talk and hang out. I developed feelings for her. I looked 'passed her bad side'. I loved talking to her and we would always make each other laugh.

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A month ago she broke up with me. She said i wasn't spontaneous enough. A day later she changes her mind and wants to date again. We start hanging out but we talk less. She is really hot and cold, one moment kissing me and saying we will do stuff in the future the next few days nothing.

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I start getting suspicious and anonymously stupidly message a guy who i thought was banging her. He messages me saying all he did was message her telling her to come over and she did and they had sex (WTF!).

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I'm furious and show her a snippet of the message and tell her i'm scared of STDS. She tells me it was in the past and she's not interested in having sex with anyone (strong lie!).

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Few days later, i call her out on her lie in rage and jealousy. She then tells me she is actually seeing someone (a 3rd guy ! different to the guy she banged! - WTF!). I'm furious and i threaten to black mail her unless she tells me who it is. She shows me and the guy is good looking and it makes me sad. I then apologise for my threats and offer to call her. She tells me no and tells me off for stalking the guys instagram (my name popped up when i watched his story). I feel embarressed and she eventaully deletes and blocks me off all platforms.

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As you can see i was real silly for threatening her and stalking but i was just so jealous and depressed. As you can also see this girl was super sluty. I can't beelieved i developed feelings for such a girl. I can't stop obsessing over her. I would legit empty my bank account on her just to have her come over and cuddle with me. I've slept iwth other girls but it just doesn't feel the same and makes me feel worse. What do i do? I ve tried to stop myself from stalking her but i can't. I miss her so much - BUT WHy? WHY DO I miss such a trashy person? aLL My friends said she was trash but imiss her? How do istop? should i blow my brains out

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thanks for reading