For starters this is mostly about I can't get past first-base. Most recently I got back from a beach trip where I hooked up with a girl way out of my league HB9. I am proud to say the least. My confidence has been through the roof lately, high as it has ever been. Probably why I scored this girl, I can't wait for my next opportunity so I can build on this confidence. Yet I couldn't get past first base.

For starrters I am 18, I had my first hook-up, at.... yep, you guessed it. 18. I didn't really get into the partying scene or socializing with females outside of school until 17. Still then I didn't have the confidence to close on the girls I had the few opportunities to. However, enough drunk encounters later at age 18 I had my first hook-up. Over the course of this school year I've had 5 drunk hookups (including this one) with different girls, none are below my standards. I've yet to have sober hookup. Every time I never go past first base.

This most recent event I felt like I could have gone way further, I definitely could have gotten the girl's shirt off, bra off, etc. But I was afraid to, despite my supreme confidence. I realized the morning after that she was totally interested in me and would have been fine with it. I can't find it in me to try to go past first base during the hookup, even when the girl is all over me, on my lap, cuddling, etc.

Furthermore the day after a hookup the girl and I completely ignore each other! I'm not sure if this is because she realizes I was a drunk mistake, that I'm too ugly, weird, terrible kisser, or something. I'm not sure what it is, it just is weird that we go about completely ignoring each other.

Most recently, this girl I met at the beach ditched her friends to hang out with my until 6:30 AM where we made out and talked for several hours until I walked her back to her friends place. The next day I didn't see her for one occasion where she was with a group of 10ish+ people so I was afraid and didn't bother to approach. However, I did see her again later that night at a bar where I was able to talked to her one on one. However this time was different, she wasn't invested in the conversation, her responses were quick and short, she didn't want anything to do with me it seemed. This was backed up with several other abnormal behaviors. She was avoiding me and clinging to her school group (who I had all be-friended). I got the message clearly and saw I backed off and enjoyed the rest of my night with my friends. The point is this has happened every time in different forms, the girls decline opportunities to hang out again, or just don't respond. Its just so weird because we both seemed to be having a lot of fun the night before, Especially in this case, this girl was stuck to me like glue, finding excuses to bump into me or to isolate me. And our conversations were pretty smooth.

TL:DR

So seddit I ask you for your help, I can't get past first base, and girls ignore me the day after a hookup. In the beginning I had fairly low confidence, but now my confidence is through the roof and I don't think I have problems with AA, or upholding a conversation and being interesting.