Hi guys. I’m new to this although I have first acquainted with seduction since December 2019, shamefully I still haven’t achieve success. Shortly after that COVID looms and everyone basically are paranoid of strangers. During the ongoing pandemic I always used it as an excuse for not going out, thinking that the girls will reject me since they are paranoid of the virus.

Not to mention those two and a half years I spend regretting and fearing. On one hand I intensely hate myself for not “man up” to approach a girl. On the other hand, the crippling fear cropping up every single time before approaching always effectively shut me down before I even make a move. Although there are some far and between approaches during this time, I never dampened this crippling fear enough to the extent that allows me to approach as much women as I required to find success.

Fast forward to last month, I started my first approach at the cafeteria at my workplace. The girl at least responded neutrally and I got so pumped for doing this. After that, I made a goal for myself: approaching at least 1 girl per day.

Some days I got 2 approaches, some days I got 4, some days I got none (I bitched out). I experience some warm receptions. Some cold despised look. Some nervous rejections. I thought I would have accustomed to rejections by now since I have experienced it, sadly it still takes me a ton of mental preparation to make one single move, that crippling fear is still rampaging in me. It makes approaching dreadful and not approaching frustrating. I knew I have to get out of the loop to get the life.

TLDR: the above are my experience with approaching girls. Below are my questions.

Every time I see an attractive girl right beside me, the very moment I want to open my mouth and utter a “Hi”, I get a overwhelming surge of anxiety, telling me that if I say hi, everyone around will instantly notice I am a freak harassing girls around and the girl will shut me down because I am a weirdo. Especially when I was on a packed subway, I “knew” that she would think I am creepy and those around will know I am creepy. I can’t imagine myself approaching 10 girls in the same mall on the same day because I think everyone will be on alert for “a creepy guy lurking around the mall searching for girls to harass on”. It is extremely frustrating since I know it is a must to approach as much girls as possible but the thought of being a weirdo just make me dread approaching. I know this kind of questions has been asked a million times here but I feel so desperate I need some wise words from you guys to help me get out of this soul-sucking abyss.

Extra: to add to the mix, I am a very short guy (165cm) with sparse hair since birth (scalp clearly visible from both sides and top). This further reinforce the idea that I am not qualified to this game since I am convinced no girls will find a guy with this height and this type of hair attractive. Maybe this is my fate no matter how much I do?