Been stuck in the same rut making no progress for years, I've tried different jobs none have worked out and struggled to save money for the last 3 years, struggling with addictions to pron and drugs. Now I'm a waiter, not much going on and been feeling down and angry towards myself.

I've had serious ups and downs, saving huge amounts, losing it, becoming homeless, drug addiction, athletics, now I'm 26 feel regret towards the past and still lost, angry I've done nothing in life. I haven't dated because I haven't felt good enough in a long time, I'm angry and bitter even though I ran through girls till 21, it still led to feeling empty. I haven't been able to connect and I feel so lonely and hurt, don't know if I will ever be able to.

I blame my childhood and witnessing a lot of violence and being abused, parents struggle with mental health and drug addiction. I'm struggling to fit in the world, I don't like the way it is I've tried therapy and multiple drugs, I'm in therapy now again, I want to stop hating myself, have a place in the world and actually push my life forward.