haven't done one of these in a while, here goes!

i spent Saturday and Sunday in a park in my city wandering around looking for cuties to chat with. when I started on Saturday I had this absolutely electric mood from the very beginning for whatever reason and was really feeling myself, so first girl I see that piques my interest I do the usual "I liked your style" or some bs and chatted with her for a minute, different cold reads; can't remember now. So one problem I constantly have is it's hard to really tell how beautiful the woman is until we're face to face, and after a few seconds I kind of started to feel like I wasn't into her but we were having a nice chat so I opted to continue. Honestly wasn't going to ask for her number and was just gonna wish her a nice day but she pulled out this line lol "so you stopped me to get my number, right? here..." lmao. so I took it out of politeness and she wrote me but not entirely sure if I will follow up.

As I went through the park I opened probably around 8-10 chicks but ended up having a very fun random adventure which involved salsa dancing in the middle of the park with hundreds of people around (there was some public salsa dance thing), joining a group of people playing volleyball (because I love volleyball) and crushing it; then I asked one of the chicks we were playing with if she wanted to have a drink and she ended up stopping play for a sec to give me her number haha. here's a question this chick is only here for a week, so I figured she knew whats up, but when I asked to her hang she said she "can't be out late" because she has jet lag and couldn't even meet at 830 (she changed it to 8). i had too much stuff to do so I told her let's try another night and now its a bit of a logistical mess. also a major problem I have is that I don't have my own place in my city and I commute 40 minutes into it because NYC is really expensive and I save like 2k/mo staying in my parents house where I have my own mini apartment essentially. so I'm kind of reliant on either banging chicks at their place (but I never quite know how to suggest we go to their place? do I literally say that? if I had my own place there's like 1000x different bs reasons you can come up with, come see my pet frog, lets go play boardgames, there's a cool piece of art I want you to see, whatever.... but suggesting to go to the woman's place? unsure. in the past when its happened it was their own suggestions, they'd ask me if I want to come up lol) or somehow convincing them to make the trip 40min away out of the city (a hard ask for a same night lay... although once I took a chick to my old place in NJ across the river haha) anyways, so at this point I'm not entirely sure what to do with this woman, tempted to just let it go and while she's been replying to texts it hasn't been very engaging or fliratious, although maybe that's because english is her 2nd language?

ok fast forward to sunday, I started the day with the polar opposite mood and was quite nervous and in my own head for some reason, but tried to get myself to just converse with randos and get myself in a good chatty state. i did that but it didn't help and I still let a few cuties walk by me. eventually I found a good thread on seddit which mentioned how AA comes with lack of focus, and thinking about reactions you will get, instead of focusing on taking action, being the man you want to be, and simply doing the thing that you set out to do. so I sat on a bench for a while, calmed myself down, and really just pictured myself doing approaches, getting numbers, getting girls to smile, etc. soon this cute chick walks by me, we make eye contact for a couple of seconds, and I run up to her introduce myself and we ended up walking around the park for like an hour and chatting about so much. turns out she was nearing the end of some relationship so I didn't push it at all and was like well lemme know whats up and if anything we can be friends. it was a great interaction.

now (arguably) the best park of my weekend. whilst doing approaches some chicks told me about this edm concert happening in the park called "robot heart". i ended up going there, buying tickets on the spot, and trying "festival game" for the first time. at first I thought it'd be different and that there was some kind of special approach or knowledge you should have or some bullshit, idk. but at some point I just kind of dove into the crowd, started dancing, and eventually once I was feeling it started looking for cuties. it was pretty cool because the music was loud enough to dance and get lost in it but not so loud you couldn't talk. and tbh it was like any other approaching environment except quite concentrated with cuties everywhere. the 3rd or 4th girl I came up to had these fantastical eyes, so I commented on them and we literally IMMEDIATELY started dancing with each other, it was so cool and so much fun. i kind of went for the k-close after a few minutes haha but told me no, so we just kept dancing and chatting. now here's the thing I don't know about and I really want your opinions... she rejected my kiss after I went for it very early (few minutes in) but after we danced for like 1.5-2 hours together, we had this ridiculous sexual tension and our faces were literally touching, but everytime I would kind of move my lips towards her she would stay there for like a second, but then would kind of look away. i was afraid to overstep my boundaries so I just let the sexual tension build, but it was so confusing because it felt like she wanted to kiss me based on everything else and yet when i was clearly going for it she would kind of wander away with her face. so i end up walking with this girl out of the festival and with her friends somewhere on the street. she was really trying to get me to go with them to the afterparty but i really had to go. so i try one last time and kind of get close to her and say something like "so i guess we'll have to kiss on our next date then huh?" and she's like "yeah i guess so" im not sure if i fucked up here or not because i was trying to be respectful of her boundaries but im also unsure if she actually wanted to just feel kind of submissive and if i should've just held her face with my hands and kissed her?