So I did it! I directly approached a girl.

Right now I'm kinda used to approaching girls. But I always used situational openers of some kind. As you can imagine that made my game highly situation dependent and doesn't really convey my final intent. So I decided I would need to do direct game to overcome those restrictions.

As it turned out it was way harder than expected, as now I really had to put myself on the line. No more being a smart-ass and no more excuses. Yesterday I actually failed to do one single direct approach.

But today it worked. I sat myself down on one of the most vivid places in the city and waited for a target. Whenever a beautiful woman passed I was actually figuring out so many reasons not to do it, it was quite impressive. Too ugly, uses phone, doesn't look happy, walks too fast, walks too slow, may be a tourist, too young, too old, waits for someone, everyone is looking ...

And I always caught myself trying to make up situational things. Those are fucking excuses that hide what I really want!

Well after some time (2 hours) I finally got myself to go after one. I stood up ... went after her, saw that I would need to run to catch her ... left it be, that would be weird, wouldn't it?!

Took me 10 more minutes and an incredible HB10 walked past me. I said fuck it and went after her, same situation as before I would need to run.

"maybe I shouldn't do ..." "No you little bitch, you are not doing this again, run!" <- my inner monologue

So I catched up to her and said "Hi, I saw you walking by over there and just thought that you are so beautiful, I'll have to talk to you." she smiled at me broadly and I can't remember what she said, but it was something encouraging. So I had to make conversation ... and I realized that my mind was totally blank. All the adrenalin that got me to do this thing was now blocking my creativity and me from having a meaningful conversation. So I fell back to the most basic things. "how are you?" "fine" ..... a thin flash of hope appeared: "So where are you going right now?" "Oh I'm going to eat. I actually don't have much time I have to get home to eat and I haven't eaten all day" There it was, so many things to reply in retrospect I could have talked about what she will have, why it couldn't wait (yes there was a shittest in there), if she wanted to grab something to eat with me, in which area she lived ... The only thing I could think of was: "I love eating" ... I think it was better I didn't say it out loud. Yeah we talked some useless crap she told me she had a boyfriend which I didn't believe but also was unable to defuse .... It was crap and we parted ways shortly after. But she kept saying how impressed she was with the approach and broadly smiled at me the whole time ... so well, I think it still brightened her day.

Why I was going for a HB10? Well, if I was going to do something high risk (at least it felt to me like that) I wanted a high reward.

After that, I was exhausted, it's incredible how draining it is to overcome your deeply ingrained thought patterns, and couldn't get myself to do any more approaches. I've planned to do the same thing again with at least 2 girls tomorrow to get more used to it.

TL:DR transitioned from situational to direct approach and was surprised how hard it is.