Fuck man. Today I think I could bang a chick and I didn't. My past girlfriends have actually tried with me and it was always difficult vice versa. I wanna switch this around because I want power over my dating life.

So I met this girl in a friend group of mine but she was a friend of a friend of a friend of a friend, so ain't no way I saw her back if I didn't send her again. Now thing is we were vibing real good when we met. I could borrow her sweater and actually forgot to give it back to her. Now I asked if we could go drink a coffee (yes it's lame but I actually didn't even expect that to happen)...

Today I saw her and we went for the coffee. And she was positive about it. We talked, I teased a bit but didn't turn it romantic or sexual. So I probably just friendzoned myself (but hey it's a me thing). Guys I'm stupid but suddenly she asks if I like chess. She asks me if I wanna play chess at her home. I got the hint... but couldn't really take it because it's confusing to me.

I went home with her to play... only chess sadly 🤣. Nothing happened, but I think there could have if I had the balls to do it. Now question is... How do you initiate, like, getting physical? Because that is my problem, I get stuck at making a move... You just do it yourself without a sign or anything? Or are there signs to look at if you are confused? I think it is in my own head and I think too much.

The thing is my past girlfriends and flings were reaaaaally clear about it. Like actually saying it or touching my arm. Now I don't know what to do when I get less, like, green light you know?