It feels like I'm stuck in this pit that I can't get out of no matter how hard I try. I've been hitting the gym everyday now, and my new gym partner is probably one of the most popular kids on campus. For whatever reason I've always been good at making friends with dudes but when it comes to chicks I have no idea what I'm doing. I've gotten 3 numbers in the past two weeks, which for me is pretty good. I feel like I've got tons of social proof. Every party I go to people know me and are excited to see me. And yet none of this results in any tangible results for me. I still find myself at loss with what to say to girls. When I do get a number, either I lose interest in the girl or they lose interest in me. Every girl that does show interest in me already has a boyfriend. Even in the past when I was on my A game I still would make tiny mistakes that seemed to always sabotage any chance of success. Girls would kiss me on the cheek or spend the entire night dancing and flirting with me, and I would just completely miss out on the fact that they probably wanted to do more than make out. The combination of this and schoolwork means that I feel completely overwhelmed throughout the day. I dunno what to do. Self-pity is awful, and I don't want to fall into that. But things have been like this for a long, long time and I know I have to improve somewhere.

Just the wrong attitude towards life right now.