I don't get it. Everyday when I go to school, I see these stunning girls with their boyfriends and I'm like "why are they with them, they have the body of a 40 year old" I believe i am a solid 8 and a catch. There's always this thought that ' Hey man, don't judge anyone, you don't know what they've been through' Then I learned looks don't matter and that's somewhat true 70% of the time. I'll be like ok, I'll work on myself because I can't control whther people like me or not. Fast forward a couple months, I'm fit look better have more confidence in myself. Life is pretty good but at the end of the day, it's still the same, I don't have great friends, still a virgin and i am afraid. I am afraid of living in mediocrity. I worked out, ate healthy, read books, studied hard, but I feel like nothing has changed. I know that self-improvement is a neverending journey and that's great. I am on this journey for myself not anyone else because a journey for others is a disaster waiting to happen. I feel like a dog chasing it's own tail. I know that i shouldn't wish and start doing Every morning, i believe i will be better but graduating in a couple weeks I feel like i have accomplished nothing. I just don't get what's wrong with me. I feel like I'm doing everything right but nothing that I do works. I talk to girls, nothing hapens. I have to start a conversation with people which is ok but no one starts one with me. I just don't get it. Sorry for the text wall peeps, haven't posted in a long time.