I want to date around and get into a relationship with the "girl of my dreams" as they say. That is one of my goals when it comes to relationships because I guess I am more stable that way. If you look at me and my life on the outside, you would see that it is pretty good. I am healthy, good-looking, fit, going to school, live in a luxury apartment, have my own car, a large group of friends etc. All the areas of my life I am satisfied with EXCEPT for my relationship area. I haven't had a true relationship in years and I lost my V when I was 19. The only validation I get from that is that the girl I lost my V to was seriously a 9/10. I met up with her recently and she looks like a model no fucking lie but I felt like I got "lucky". I'm 21 years old and haven't had any action since then. Anyway, I dealt with low self-worth for all my life. I grew up in a way where I felt like shit and was kinda treated like one. I wasn't abused or anything like that but I felt like I was just worthless, not good enough and depressed. Somedays I look in the mirror now and think "Damn, I am sexy" lol but somedays I look in the mirror and hate what I see. I don't feel good enough to be with the girls I want and don't know how to improve or have a sense of "worth". The only thing for me to have a sense of worth when it comes to attracting girls is being rich and having high-status but that's not happening soon. My own low self-esteem really got bad before to the point where I felt hopeless and suicidal. Now, I don't feel suicidal but I feel frustrated and hopeless. How can I deal with problems with self-worth, thinking I am not good-enough etc?